school-related english is now officially over.

yay! most people would say. im a bit neutral to it. although it was stressful and a bitch, i kinda enjoyed it.

the AOS paper was a bitch. urgh. i so screwed it up. n they say AOS is supposed to be easy -_-'' i dint completely noe how to approach the qn.. n it was the very 1st exam n i was half asleep blah.

nemoos, the mod exam was alot ALOT better. the qns were much more predictable and what i studied suited the qn well =]

next up: business zzZzz.. i NEED to beat my assessment mark, 91 >_<

must! MUST! ................... *falls asleep*

cc.

>feeling: tired
>hearing: beethoven- ave maria

thats all that i have time for these days hsc hsc hsc hsc hschschshchschshchschschhsc alksdjalsdjaljsdlajsdla~~~~~~!@@@!@@

and the occasional minesweeper and eating den back to hsc hschschhschschschshc

nemoos. i jus realised that blogdrive deleted my blog archives. so, being the sentimental fuck i am, i went thru n saved everything manually. boy, was that a long and tedious process. nehoos, its all done now.

looking back on my previous blogs, dating right back to 04' i realised how much i've changed and matured. sure, its a cliched thing to say, but you really dont see this gradual but continuous change. i feel like im so much older now, so much more than 2 years. i also noticed how much more depressed i was, and unstable especially whilst i was in the realtionship with football. i see now how it would of never worked, as much as i may of tried. im glad ive moved on, even though it was a slow process. many of my mistakes are pointed out. and i will not repeat them.

some of the shit is so gay, its like wen u look back at the stuff u sed in yr7 or 8 and realise how lame you were or how dumb u looked.

two years of memories. of records. full of gay shit and happy shit and shit shit. and its funny, how people day that nothing interesting ever happens at this age. theres so many that we forget half of them.

some interesting memories:

>ffot: it is time to trust the ones you doubted and doubt the ones you trusted.

>ffot: things werent the way the were before, you wouldnt evn recognise me anymore, not that u nu me back then, but it all comes back to you in the end. -lp- in the end.. reminds me of my old group fo sum reason

>ffot: to write or to speak is almost inevitably to lie a little. It is an attempt to clothe an intangible in a tangible form; to compress an immeasurable into a mold. And in the act of compression, is how truth is mangled and torn. -anne morrow.

animania
... he asked me to take the foto wid him in which jessie did for me. so wen i was taking the foto the tenatcle man kept whispering in jessie's ear saying stuff like 'urghh tentacles.. ahhh tenatcles' which tehn u realised was hentai LOL it was halarious n he kept stikin his tongue out near her neck. HAHA

yr10 formal
-the dj rocked n had a g nuit shirt on
-leb rappers suck
-leb food sux
-shame waan wasnt there to say to bahara how shit the food was. as shannon sed
-ppl dressed nas =] well sum were off.. i rkn lisa dint look nas.. normal sorta
-laura sung my immortal at the end. n it was sorta ironic how it started off wid 'im so tired of being here' lol
-toilets ran outta toilet paper
-karen dances funny =D hahah she was a crack up weaving in n out of groups on the dancefloor
-the flashing lights that were blinking approx. 2x per second for about a couple of minutes killed everyones sight x_x
-bahara SHUD NOT dance on teh table in her yellow revealing ensemble x_x

>fft: procracination is like masturbation, in the end, you realise you've just fucked yourself. --thanks to david for that lol

jak was being her usual motherly self lol, n she kept getting irriated at me becoz i slouch, yea i dun lyk it either, but i cant help it >_< qu0te: you're a model! now start walking like one'

. n i had this faggot old man who was abt to walk past like, like any other person yet stopped right in front of me arnd 2m away n jus stared at me as tho i was sum kinda alien. fucking hell it was scary. so i ran. lol i acually ran. well tried to, but yea.

>fft: joanne the man n his/her various disturbing quotes:
- im oversexed
- sex is bad. i mean u get all smoked up for nothing.. well ur all gna fuck one day
- [boasts] im playing 2 guys. a 17yr old leb n a 27yr old man O_O
- 17yr old leb/arabs are good *winks* [ewwwwwwwww]


home time: 8pm at cabra stn
due to boredom n gosh noes what.. i start using my fob accent
...after a while.. fob gangsta approaches
''YO my fweeen wannn ur NUMMMba!''
me: eh? uhh no? HUH? *lost* [to sarz n jess: lest walk away...]
*all of us freake dout atm*
SO r YeW gnnna gib daaa nUMMba or waaat?


>fft: there are three phrases in this world.. that are most difficult to say: sorry, help me and goodbye.


mardi gras!.. dam it was hectic.. so fun though.. we almost died in the crowd.
lying at hyde park was fun... running away was fun. looking at ben n jess was funni xD
i saw gay guys kiss. fucking sexy as. i <3 gay guys =]]]

meeting wilson;
n we had reservations for lunch.. so we went to balmain for that. so dam pretty >_<'' eeeeek!~ yea.. we were right beside the water n all n the food was indeed, very nice. prawns n lobster? the chips were nice. haha.


cc.

>feeling: tired
>hearing: enya- only time [sweet november]

after 13 years, school has finally come to a loud and screechy end.

and its a lonely end, but it still hasn't hit me yet.
well, it took 2 years for it to hit me that i finished primary school. id never see them again.

will i ever talk to you again?

i guess i was absent so much that i dint even realise how close the end was.
i don't like goodbyes, don't like that word at all.
so i never said it. not once.


~


on a brighter note, i had the ball on thursday. fuck i was dead by the time i got home on saturday morning x_x
it was a huge rush to get ready on thursday after school, at jacks house rushing arnd like hell. grabbed a bite to eat on the way as we got to the city and booked the hotel. the hilton was too far so we ended up at the crowne plaza, which was still very nice. it was 200 a night, i think. the bathroom was HOT, all solid marble interior =]

got to ball, held at dockside darling harbour.. it was okay.. the entertainment.. was, interesting.
think: uni nerds + alcohol + a microphone = O_O
the food, was typical.. 3 course stuff. candle lit tables, harbour view, very pretty.

i got picked up by a sleazy white dood. omfg. disgusting =S
alex, was his name. urgh.

alex: oh heyyyyyy.. cecilia right?
cc: umm.. yea.. sorry, ur umm..?
alex: alex nice to meet you
cc: *hand out for a hand shake*
alex: whoa girl, just for a second i thort u were trying to grab me there. i was thinking, maybe we could save that for later...
cc: *WTF* umm.. riiiiiiighteo...
*george is laughing in the background* -_-
alex: so u enjoying urself?
cc: yea its ok.
[insert more random questions here]
alex: ill see you.. over there.. *goes back to his seat opposite me on the table*
george: *bursts out laughing* hahah i told u he was a sleaze, you gave him dead ends to all his pickup lines!
cc: hmph. what else was i supposed to do -_-

.. that was retarded.

a whole lot of dancing followed the meals, and into the night at the after party.
went back to the hotel with pineapple, george, mish etc etc and ordered room service .. oOoh yea. hot stuff. it was very classy. and expensive. bloody meals were 50+ . a normal salad was like 25 o_O

morning followed a very.. short night, as we had to get out by 11am. everyone went their seperate ways and pineapple and i went to eat breakky at star city =]
got home and slept slept slept slept slept slept slept ~

what a pricy 2 days indeed. prolly totalled to like.. 500+ all up  -_-''

anyway, thanks this much o--(^_^)--o  for all of this; very schmexy anno present ;) annnnd everything else pineapple head =D happy 6 months!


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okay finally, i went to palm beach today. first time ive ever been there. the drive among the tress was absolutely beautiful. initial d-like roads, driving over mountain tops, with the ocean below, eeeeek =D

lets see. it wasnt really hot in the morning so we were contemplating whether to go or not.. till 11. lol finally we left, picked up caren at macq and george. after an episode with the words 'shit', 'car' and 'trouble' we made it to palm beach.

we joined everyone else, another.. 15 people or so, which is way to many to name. had a bbq with a gas cooker lol, fire ban and all. had a good time, thanks pineapple head for taking that shit long drive =]

PS: my boyfriend sitting next to my ex during the graduation for three hours: not nice.

cc.

sitting on a rock above the rest of the world,

we watched youth group below us.

and as we were freezing and curiously eating our eggs, wondering what toy we'd get,

i contemplated telling mum.

a car and a lobster.

the music was overtaken by a sweeter sound,

as the stars formed a symphony,

that caught our attention

and painted smiles on our faces.


i want to be forever young.

the sky was falling

and the clouds were dropping

and the rain forgot how to bring salvation